The Skeptic State of Mind

After months of soul-searching(school work), hours of spiritual healing (sleeping), and ego smashing (twittering) I have decided to publish another rant here in my stupid blog.

It's been 6 days of summer vacation and it's getting worse.

I am now addicted to twitter and I have nothing else to do besides controlling my hunger and breathing and twitter-ing. (yeah I made it a verb)

Also, this is the time that I am prone to self=loathing and thinking things through, upsetting myself and being vulnerable to insecurities.

I know I don't wanna go emotional nonetheless nothing distracts me to be one.

Anyway while I was surfing on TV channels, (which is my recreational activity and am doing all day to keep myself occupied until April 16) I stopped when I saw a UAAP Basketball re-run and it was a tight game between the UST Growling Tigers and the Ateneo Blue Eagles.

While watching, my mind floats somewhere else, and reckons "mmm. What if I'm in college and am watching this game live.... Where am I going to sit? On the Bleachers, cheering with my friends; Courtside, snapping photos for the Universities' herald, or there at the same spot, holding a microphone, facing a camera and reading cue cards reporting for the telecast of the game. hmmmm"

Regarding april 16 that' when i'll take review program for entrance exams and I have motivated myself to go through it.

God bless
:)
jesixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Real Stupidity

Jan 19, 2009: The best and worst day in my teenage life ever.
So here I was waiting for the Jonas Brothers' live video chat. At first thought I was so sure that I didn't have to care If I were to be late for school, until my mom went down the room where I was waiting. Then my mom scolded me for being "too early to get dressed" which was another case of overreaction right?
And then eff, fear launched through me, err lemme rephrase that. A very ridiculous kind of fear launched through me, FEAR OF BEING LATE FOR SCHOOL, how STUPID of me.
Then OMG they removed the paper that covered the webcam which revealed a couch, a long tan-brown couch. Then OMFJ!
Joe, Nick popped on the screen first and then my Kevi-boo. So back on the chatroom we were like in our so called "OMG state of mind"
Though they were late, (like 30 minutes late-late) and had a rough start everything was totally worthy. AND THEN SHii HAPPENED. It was 6:50 and it came to me that school bell must be ringing by that time; Joe, Nick, Kevi-boo and their friends were frozen on my screen and omg. I hit ALT+F4, sht the laptop down and there. SHIII HAPPENED.
I'M VERY REGRETFUL ABOUT THAT

What I've Learned Today

I have learned that I have this big future ahead of me, that 11 months from now I have to go to college.
That it's better to decide as early as today
I don't know if i'll stick up with it but for now. I'm pretty sure of this.
Optimistically, when I graduated after High School, mom says I can move out with my dad in manila, so i'll move out with my dad and be stuck there until I found my own place. I'll find a stable job that can help make up for college fees.
And most importantly, this career or course of my interest that i'll be taking on college is mass communication.
And with a bit of luck, perseverance, patience, hard work and faith. Perhaps i'll be one of the blue eagles.

Lord. help. me :)
toodles,
jessica marie

Tis the season to be jolly!

Falalalalala. =)

hey blog people. jessica here. and Christmas is coming. Not to mention my birthday is fast approaching too hehe.

There are so many things that i'm hyped about.

First, is this saturday. Me and my friends are going to watch twilight of course.
Second, it's Christmas time! I'm planning for my outfit and christmas gifts na rin.
Since I come up with the idea na walang kwenta ang magiging xmas party namin sa school for this year, yeah I still think thats gonna happen for wala namang ka-plan plan yung adviser namin for the party and all that.
Lastly, I'm wishing (and hoping) that ill get a brand new Canon Eos 50d for christmas.

Wow. few more days from now and i'll get old again.

Next stop: 4th year HS
then..
COLLEGE.
idk if I could handle those stuff:|

toodles.
jessica marie

oh and to yall american dudes who can vote.

please vote for OBAMA! wohoo

What Exactly Kills Me.

One word.

Boredom.

This semester break wasn't actually fun.
I didn't have some activity to engage myself with, nevertheless endless internet surfing and Dvd watching; Particularly How I Met your Mother. Which is the main reason that encouraged me to write a blog.

And I thank those awesome geniuses who created Barney Stinson (One of the gods that ruled my TV screen) for sapping my boredom one episode at a time.

I also thank all of my LG.org boardies for uplifting my spirit by talking about how awesome lucas grabeel (my idol) is.Which is evidently true, have you seen him dance, act and sing??
Well if you haven't; go watch HSM 3 in theaters now!

If you still haven't watch any HSM movies or anything affiliated with him..
If I were you, I'll strangle myself with a tv cord.(oops, my fangirliness strikes again sorry bout that)

Anyway, Chris Tiu is amaaaazing, you know one of my BFFs approached him once in a mall and took a picture with him and she said he was oh so kind and nice (wait those words are synonymous with each other but thats how you describe him, period)

How I wish I ran to him in a mall<33

Well, thats what i have in mind for now,


happy halloween,

toodles,
Jessica Marie